pregnancy

6 month bump update | baby #4

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how far along are you? 25w 1d

how big is baby? baby boy is the size of a Napa Cabbage!

how are you feeling? I am feeling huge. I’m getting a little bit uncomfortable these days, and am experiencing some stretching on my left side a lot of the day. I’m still tired, but nothing compared to that zombie feeling of the first couple of months!

how is sleep? sleep is still my favorite time of day 🙂 It’s so wonderful to just fall into my bed snuggle into my maternity pillow and catch some zzz’s. I still don’t wake up in the night to use the bathroom and I am hanging onto that for as long as possible. Lol. I’m actually really….really thankful that I get awesome sleep as those first few months with baby can be so exhausting!

best moment of the week? Even though it is a strange feeling, baby boy kicked me so hard that it made me a jump. What an odd thing to have as the best moment this week? Well I am just so happy that little man is growing and moving and grooving. Makes me so happy. A huge exciting thing that has happened though is I got a new camera and lens (can you tell?) yesterday we took it out to Jasper Lake and Jayden snapped all of these shots of me ❤

what foods do you love? hate? Everything bad is what I love, anything frozen and sweet, fries, I do still love pickles, grapefruit and other fruit as well. Honestly I just love to eat. There’s nothing I don’t like at this point.

what are you looking forward to? meeting this little guy. Everything he moves, I get so exciting and just can’t help but think of how he will look, what he will be like? I’m looking forward to having my body back, and really focusing on taking care of myself. Getting back into shape…finally shedding all the baby weight.

anything else to report? we have been working on an update for baby’s growth. There have been a couple of things that we have found via ultrasound that we have been having to monitor with his growth. I’ll be putting that update up in the next couple of days as it needs to be a whole different post to explain what has been going on. Thanks for following along our journey. We are excited to have this little boy, and it is still so crazy that we will have 4 boys! A family of 6! God is so good. I am such a proud boy mama!

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Outfit: Dress from Walmart (so surprised when I saw it last summer) Leggings are American Eagle (non maternity but they are very comfortable)

xo,

-Cynthia

pregnancy

4 month bump update | baby #4

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4 Months already! This month we get to find out if there is a little boy in there or if there is a little girl in there. Such an exciting month ahead!

how far along are you? 18w4d

how big is baby? Baby is now about the size of a sweet potato.

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how are you feeling? Fatigue. That is all. I’ve been exhausted at least 90% of my days. The struggle is so real with this one. I’ve just ordered a bunch of Young Living supplements to hopefully help with the tiredness. Some Super B, Multigreens and Ningexia Red Drink! I’m really hoping that this makes a big difference in a couple weeks from now.

how is sleep? Sleep is great! It’s honestly my favorite time of day at this point! I’m just happy that I don’t have to wake up a million times to pee yet…that time will come as baby get’s bigger…for now I cherish my sleep time.

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best moment of the week? I got to enjoy a strawberry milkshake from Dairy Queen and it was delicious…I’ve been craving one for months now.

what foods do you love? hate? I’m all about pickles right now! Baby dills with extra garlic are my favorite! I love fruit, pretty well all kinds but blueberries are my go to. I also really enjoy veggies and dip. Sound too healthy? lol. Well I love carbs and just can’t seem to get enough, toast with butter, I love rice and I dream about potato’s (cooked all kinds of ways) I’m trying to eat healthier but it’s hard when my cravings are carbs and lots of them. Another love is hot chocolate with a shot of mint (at tim horton’s)

Coffee was the only thing I didn’t want to drink. For Jayden’s Birthday a few weeks ago I actually bought him a pour over coffee system this one. And guys I love the coffee it brews, so coffee is on the radar again. I still enjoy 1-2 cups a day…it’s not my favorite thing to drink, but I am just so thankful that I am able to drink it again.

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what are you looking forward to?  The most exciting thing will be our March 22nd Ultrasound (gender one) Jayden get’s to come with me to it, so I am looking forward to him being there and getting to see our baby for the first time via ultrasound! Then we find out the gender, so I’m brainstorming some ideas for a gender reveal video.

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anything else to report? Honestly, not really. The last couple of days my energy levels have started increasing and that makes me so happy. I’m even thinking of adding some fitness back into my life as it’s been a very long time since then. I’m planning some meals today for this week and I am gonna do a big grocery shop tomorrow so I can really focus on eating a lot better. The past couple of months have been very hard with the crazy fatigue I had and I’m not gonna lie I’ve been eating way too much takeout from fast food places.

Didn’t Jayden do a wonderful job capturing some 4 months photos of me the other day? I’m training him up to do more fashion posts as that is something I have always been interested in…but it has also been one of those things that has terrified me to put more pictures of myself out there. But sometimes you just need to get out of your comfort zone to really discover the beauty in yourself…that confidence that sometimes get’s lost….No more….time to accept where I am at with body image (I generally do a good job of that during pregnancy) but it’s time to just love on myself a whole lot more. My body is doing amazing things afterall…and my time will come to shed all of the weight, but as for now my focus will be on self love while I grow our last Baby Madsen ❤

IMG_5211Jacket: Black Cinched Utility Jacket from Pink Blush                                                    Top: Navy Floral Lace-Up Blouse from Pink Blush                                                               Jeans: Maternity Biker Jeans from Gap Maternity

xo,

-Cynthia

 

pregnancy

3 months bump update | baby #4

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​How far along are you?
15w 3d

How big is baby?
Baby is the size of an avocado!

How are you feeling?
I am still experiencing that fatigue I’ve been struggling with! This is no joke…it is a real thing. So tired all the time!!!! Emotionally I am feeling good, but I think because of the fatigue, it definitely has a bit of an effect on my emotional side of things. I haven’t had the energy to really do much these past few weeks! There are a lot of things I want to do around our house but even finding the energy for getting things like daily chores and dinner on the table has been a challenge for me!

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How is sleep?
Sleep has been such an awesome thing for me (I’m still loving my maternity pillow) Sleep has been something I’ve been looking forward to! I do wake up the odd night of the week to have to go pee in the middle of the night (which can get annoying) but I am thankful that it isn’t happening every night…yet.

Best moment this week?
The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling tiny little movements from Baby! Teeny little bubbles of movements from babe, they are hard to describe but I know it’s baby!!!! At first I thought it couldn’t be (it started happening around 10-11 weeks) I figured maybe it was just gas! But it is feeling more and more like that is a tiny little baby making those feelings in my belly. It usually happens when I lay down at night to watch a show with Jayden, at times of me trying to relax. I have to say I’ve always loved feeling the babies in my belly, it is something that never get’s old for me!

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What Foods do you love and hate?
Chocolate and Eggs are back on the love list and this makes me so happy! Orange juice is still my must have everyday (we literally go though jugs of it!) It’s probably my favorite thing in the whole world right now.
Pickles are my jam right now…I literally enjoy 3 pickles every night before bed lol.

So unfortunately coffee and I are breaking up (insert crying face) the past few weeks I have had several “off” days with coffee and this past week in particular I can’t even finish my coffee’s. I don’t like regular brewed coffee, french press, Italian espresso, Tim Hortons, and a couple days ago I even tried a Carmel Mocha Latte (which if you know me you know that this is my favorite specialty drink) Friends….this makes me so sad! Hopefully I will be able to come back to drinking it again during this pregnancy or at least post partum.

What are you looking forward to?
I’m looking forward to starting some knitting projects for the baby! I have a couple patterns saved that I can’t wait to order yarn for and dig into! Of course it will be more exciting when we find out the gender so I can really focus on colors of yarn…and start the baby’s blanket. But I also can’t wait to knit up a couple little tiny knit pants and some cardigans either 🙂

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Anything else to report?
I wasn’t sure I wanted to add this in, but I do want to be able to document my pregnancy with all the ups and downs and everything in between.
Friday February 2nd just before Jayden and I were about to go to sleep for the night I went to use the bathroom and noticed some bleeding. It wasn’t a tonne, but it was definitely enough to alarm us. So we went to the hospital to get checked. I’ve experienced some spotting with pregnancies but not really bleeding like this, So I was very nervous and scared the entire time!
We got to the hospital and the doctor checked down below and told me that the cervix was closed and that that is really good thing. He says that if it was open, we may be experiencing a miscarriage.
I honestly wasn’t in any pain at all at that point (besides them having to check which can definitely get uncomfortable) He came back into the room with a portable ultrasound machine and we scanned for the baby. Doctor said that he wasn’t trained to read ultrasounds or anything but we wanted to see if we could see the baby anyways. We found the baby and he then told us he didn’t know if the heart was beating or now but he did say the baby’s blood was flowing he showed Jayden where that was.
I kind of felt clueless as to if everything was ok at this point…the Doctor was a very nice calming guy, but I just wished so badly that my own Doctor was there with us!
He said we should get a call Monday to set up a proper ultrasound at the hospital to really take a good look at baby and make sure everything is ok. So I should be hearing something tomorrow and hopefully get in right away.
I woke up this morning and it has turned into light spotting and not very much of it. So if the cervix is closed and now it’s only light spotting I’m gonna try to keep positive as those are two good things.
After talking with friends who have experienced these kinds of things during their pregnancies…my mind is as ease. Sometimes we never know why bleeding in pregnancy can happen, sometimes it has nothing to do with the pregnancy at all. It can be a variety of different reasons and sometimes Doctor’s don’t have answers to why things happen.

I’ve learned that I am not in control, that Jesus is in control. He will take care of me and Baby, his hands will protect us, and he has a plan for us! We don’t know what that plan is, but I need to trust in Him.
“Don’t let your heart be troubled.” -John 14:1

*Update- As of February 12th the spotting has stopped. I also went in for my prenatal and had to do a urine test to see if there was a bladder infection we might have missed. A couple days after the doctor called and yes I do have one…so I am on antibiotics now (bummer) I honestly had no symptoms for this infection so we really didn’t even know. Not sure if this is where the spotting could have come from that is unknown. But glad we figured out my infection before it got really bad. My appointment went really well, she says everything still looks great and at the appointment we even got to hear baby’s heartbeat ❤

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xo,

-Cynthia

pregnancy

2 months bump update | baby #4

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How far along are you?
​8w 6d

How big is baby?
According to my Ovia Pregnancy app baby is the size of a wild strawberry.

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How are you feeling?
Still very tired, definitely not as hungry, but very sore breast and I actually experienced my very first “so nauseous I could puke moment this past week” I also did a workout today I did the Week 1 workout from Bikini body mommy pregnancy series! I really enjoyed it. I feel so thankful to be able to workout still!

How is sleep?
Honestly sleep is already starting to feel uncomfortable. I am a huge tummy sleeper, so a couple days ago I ordered my pregnancy/nursing pillow this is the one I love and honestly can’t survive without pillow seriously my saving grace. It just came in the mail today too so Ima sleep good tonight!!!!

Best moment this week?
I had my dating ultrasound (Jayden had to go to work so he couldn’t be there) I got to see the little baby moving a bit and saw the heart beating. I have been really nervous with the waiting game since my first doctor’s appointment. I honestly thought a lot about losing this baby and just unsure that things were ok…so when the tech showed me our sweet little peanut my whole heart melted. Guys…I am so head over heels for this little human. I feel so blessed that God chose me to be his/her mama and I am looking forward to our journey through this pregnancy.
​We are due August 16th!

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What Foods do you love and hate?
I still love the spicy foods (I could eat kimchi everyday…so I foresee us making lots of trips to Jasper to enjoy the Kimchi House…Costco also sells big tubs of it for like $10 and it’s actually pretty decent) I’m also starting to think about eating a bit healthier. I am tossing around the idea of starting a whole30 (before you think I’m crazy…lol It’s definitely not for weight loss)…but more for just reaping the benefits of having more energy and just feeling my best during this pregnancy. There is nothing I hate at this point. I definitely love that I have very few nausea and that I am able to still eat pretty well whatever I want.

What are you looking forward to?
I didn’t think this would be my answer but watching my belly grow, witnessing my baby growing in there. I am really happy I have God on my side right now…he has given me that acceptance I was looking and praying for. I may not be starting at the weight I wanted…but I am soo thankful that I get to have this pregnancy.

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Anything else to report?
We shared our news on social media. I am blown away by all the love and support from our friends and family (and even people we haven’t met) This is one loved little baby.

My goals these next couple weeks are to keep active (because I feel so good…minus the fatigue I know I can workout!) also when it warms up a bit to get my morning walks with my pup again!

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If you would like to see a video update of my 2 month update go check out my video here 🙂 2 month bump update

xo,

-Cynthia

pregnancy

1 month bump update | baby #4

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How far along are you? 
5w 1d

How big is baby?
I use the app Ovia Pregnancy. For Week 5 it says baby is the size of a peppercorn.

How are you feeling?
I feel really tired all the time. The only way I could describe it is zombie like…I feel like I could hardly function as the day goes on. I’ve been resting a lot as the boys play and then I get little boosts of energy throughout the day to try and get some chores done and kids fed. I am also very hungry…all the time. I have gotten a little bit nauseous this past week but nothing I can’t handle. This week a new symptom of sore breasts.

How is sleep?
Sleep is going really well, no complaints there!

Best moment this week?
Getting confirmation from the doctor.

What Foods do you love and hate?
I Love spicy food and honestly not interested at all in eating healthy atm.

What are you looking forward to?
Our ultrasound and hearing the baby’s heartbeat, just knowing everything is ok!

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Anything else to report?
I had a doctor’s appointment today and I left feeling a little nervous and scared. I get into the details a little bit better on my video update so head over there to check it out (and you get belly footage as well).
Anyways when my doctor walked in she told me that the test was positive but it was a faint positive…it actually really scared me (but honestly now that I think about it it was a 2pm appointment…the best time to test is in the morning) anyways she talked to me about getting an ultrasound when I was about 7 Weeks and we had figured I was 5 weeks at the appointment. She asked about my previous period, so I told her it was a spotty (abnormal) period. She said it could have been implantation and that if it was I would be 4 weeks further along then I am. She also said I could get blood work done a couple times before the ultrasound as a way to keep track of the hcg levels. I told her I didn’t want to if I had to do a dating ultrasound anyways. I kind of felt like I was going to have a miscarriage with the way the conversation was going. She told me not to be concerned. I guess Doctor’s just have to tell you everything even if it may be a little scary to hear. I left the office feeling very nervous and called my husband and then sat in the van and cried. I was really scared to have a miscarriage. So there will be a lot of praying and waiting for our ultrasound in the new year.

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Though we don’t know what the future holds…we do know that there is a little human in there now (we pray that they are growing and developing) I still cannot believe that we are pregnant and I am going to enjoy this pregnancy and cherish this whole journey.

If you would like to see a video update of my 1 Month update go check it out here 🙂

1 Month Bump Update

xo,

-Cynthia