pregnancy

3 months bump update | baby #4

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​How far along are you?
15w 3d

How big is baby?
Baby is the size of an avocado!

How are you feeling?
I am still experiencing that fatigue I’ve been struggling with! This is no joke…it is a real thing. So tired all the time!!!! Emotionally I am feeling good, but I think because of the fatigue, it definitely has a bit of an effect on my emotional side of things. I haven’t had the energy to really do much these past few weeks! There are a lot of things I want to do around our house but even finding the energy for getting things like daily chores and dinner on the table has been a challenge for me!

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How is sleep?
Sleep has been such an awesome thing for me (I’m still loving my maternity pillow) Sleep has been something I’ve been looking forward to! I do wake up the odd night of the week to have to go pee in the middle of the night (which can get annoying) but I am thankful that it isn’t happening every night…yet.

Best moment this week?
The last couple of weeks I’ve been feeling tiny little movements from Baby! Teeny little bubbles of movements from babe, they are hard to describe but I know it’s baby!!!! At first I thought it couldn’t be (it started happening around 10-11 weeks) I figured maybe it was just gas! But it is feeling more and more like that is a tiny little baby making those feelings in my belly. It usually happens when I lay down at night to watch a show with Jayden, at times of me trying to relax. I have to say I’ve always loved feeling the babies in my belly, it is something that never get’s old for me!

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What Foods do you love and hate?
Chocolate and Eggs are back on the love list and this makes me so happy! Orange juice is still my must have everyday (we literally go though jugs of it!) It’s probably my favorite thing in the whole world right now.
Pickles are my jam right now…I literally enjoy 3 pickles every night before bed lol.

So unfortunately coffee and I are breaking up (insert crying face) the past few weeks I have had several “off” days with coffee and this past week in particular I can’t even finish my coffee’s. I don’t like regular brewed coffee, french press, Italian espresso, Tim Hortons, and a couple days ago I even tried a Carmel Mocha Latte (which if you know me you know that this is my favorite specialty drink) Friends….this makes me so sad! Hopefully I will be able to come back to drinking it again during this pregnancy or at least post partum.

What are you looking forward to?
I’m looking forward to starting some knitting projects for the baby! I have a couple patterns saved that I can’t wait to order yarn for and dig into! Of course it will be more exciting when we find out the gender so I can really focus on colors of yarn…and start the baby’s blanket. But I also can’t wait to knit up a couple little tiny knit pants and some cardigans either 🙂

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Anything else to report?
I wasn’t sure I wanted to add this in, but I do want to be able to document my pregnancy with all the ups and downs and everything in between.
Friday February 2nd just before Jayden and I were about to go to sleep for the night I went to use the bathroom and noticed some bleeding. It wasn’t a tonne, but it was definitely enough to alarm us. So we went to the hospital to get checked. I’ve experienced some spotting with pregnancies but not really bleeding like this, So I was very nervous and scared the entire time!
We got to the hospital and the doctor checked down below and told me that the cervix was closed and that that is really good thing. He says that if it was open, we may be experiencing a miscarriage.
I honestly wasn’t in any pain at all at that point (besides them having to check which can definitely get uncomfortable) He came back into the room with a portable ultrasound machine and we scanned for the baby. Doctor said that he wasn’t trained to read ultrasounds or anything but we wanted to see if we could see the baby anyways. We found the baby and he then told us he didn’t know if the heart was beating or now but he did say the baby’s blood was flowing he showed Jayden where that was.
I kind of felt clueless as to if everything was ok at this point…the Doctor was a very nice calming guy, but I just wished so badly that my own Doctor was there with us!
He said we should get a call Monday to set up a proper ultrasound at the hospital to really take a good look at baby and make sure everything is ok. So I should be hearing something tomorrow and hopefully get in right away.
I woke up this morning and it has turned into light spotting and not very much of it. So if the cervix is closed and now it’s only light spotting I’m gonna try to keep positive as those are two good things.
After talking with friends who have experienced these kinds of things during their pregnancies…my mind is as ease. Sometimes we never know why bleeding in pregnancy can happen, sometimes it has nothing to do with the pregnancy at all. It can be a variety of different reasons and sometimes Doctor’s don’t have answers to why things happen.

I’ve learned that I am not in control, that Jesus is in control. He will take care of me and Baby, his hands will protect us, and he has a plan for us! We don’t know what that plan is, but I need to trust in Him.
“Don’t let your heart be troubled.” -John 14:1

*Update- As of February 12th the spotting has stopped. I also went in for my prenatal and had to do a urine test to see if there was a bladder infection we might have missed. A couple days after the doctor called and yes I do have one…so I am on antibiotics now (bummer) I honestly had no symptoms for this infection so we really didn’t even know. Not sure if this is where the spotting could have come from that is unknown. But glad we figured out my infection before it got really bad. My appointment went really well, she says everything still looks great and at the appointment we even got to hear baby’s heartbeat ❤

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xo,

-Cynthia

pregnancy

2 months bump update | baby #4

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How far along are you?
​8w 6d

How big is baby?
According to my Ovia Pregnancy app baby is the size of a wild strawberry.

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How are you feeling?
Still very tired, definitely not as hungry, but very sore breast and I actually experienced my very first “so nauseous I could puke moment this past week” I also did a workout today I did the Week 1 workout from Bikini body mommy pregnancy series! I really enjoyed it. I feel so thankful to be able to workout still!

How is sleep?
Honestly sleep is already starting to feel uncomfortable. I am a huge tummy sleeper, so a couple days ago I ordered my pregnancy/nursing pillow this is the one I love and honestly can’t survive without pillow seriously my saving grace. It just came in the mail today too so Ima sleep good tonight!!!!

Best moment this week?
I had my dating ultrasound (Jayden had to go to work so he couldn’t be there) I got to see the little baby moving a bit and saw the heart beating. I have been really nervous with the waiting game since my first doctor’s appointment. I honestly thought a lot about losing this baby and just unsure that things were ok…so when the tech showed me our sweet little peanut my whole heart melted. Guys…I am so head over heels for this little human. I feel so blessed that God chose me to be his/her mama and I am looking forward to our journey through this pregnancy.
​We are due August 16th!

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What Foods do you love and hate?
I still love the spicy foods (I could eat kimchi everyday…so I foresee us making lots of trips to Jasper to enjoy the Kimchi House…Costco also sells big tubs of it for like $10 and it’s actually pretty decent) I’m also starting to think about eating a bit healthier. I am tossing around the idea of starting a whole30 (before you think I’m crazy…lol It’s definitely not for weight loss)…but more for just reaping the benefits of having more energy and just feeling my best during this pregnancy. There is nothing I hate at this point. I definitely love that I have very few nausea and that I am able to still eat pretty well whatever I want.

What are you looking forward to?
I didn’t think this would be my answer but watching my belly grow, witnessing my baby growing in there. I am really happy I have God on my side right now…he has given me that acceptance I was looking and praying for. I may not be starting at the weight I wanted…but I am soo thankful that I get to have this pregnancy.

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Anything else to report?
We shared our news on social media. I am blown away by all the love and support from our friends and family (and even people we haven’t met) This is one loved little baby.

My goals these next couple weeks are to keep active (because I feel so good…minus the fatigue I know I can workout!) also when it warms up a bit to get my morning walks with my pup again!

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If you would like to see a video update of my 2 month update go check out my video here 🙂 2 month bump update

xo,

-Cynthia

pregnancy

1 month bump update | baby #4

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How far along are you? 
5w 1d

How big is baby?
I use the app Ovia Pregnancy. For Week 5 it says baby is the size of a peppercorn.

How are you feeling?
I feel really tired all the time. The only way I could describe it is zombie like…I feel like I could hardly function as the day goes on. I’ve been resting a lot as the boys play and then I get little boosts of energy throughout the day to try and get some chores done and kids fed. I am also very hungry…all the time. I have gotten a little bit nauseous this past week but nothing I can’t handle. This week a new symptom of sore breasts.

How is sleep?
Sleep is going really well, no complaints there!

Best moment this week?
Getting confirmation from the doctor.

What Foods do you love and hate?
I Love spicy food and honestly not interested at all in eating healthy atm.

What are you looking forward to?
Our ultrasound and hearing the baby’s heartbeat, just knowing everything is ok!

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Anything else to report?
I had a doctor’s appointment today and I left feeling a little nervous and scared. I get into the details a little bit better on my video update so head over there to check it out (and you get belly footage as well).
Anyways when my doctor walked in she told me that the test was positive but it was a faint positive…it actually really scared me (but honestly now that I think about it it was a 2pm appointment…the best time to test is in the morning) anyways she talked to me about getting an ultrasound when I was about 7 Weeks and we had figured I was 5 weeks at the appointment. She asked about my previous period, so I told her it was a spotty (abnormal) period. She said it could have been implantation and that if it was I would be 4 weeks further along then I am. She also said I could get blood work done a couple times before the ultrasound as a way to keep track of the hcg levels. I told her I didn’t want to if I had to do a dating ultrasound anyways. I kind of felt like I was going to have a miscarriage with the way the conversation was going. She told me not to be concerned. I guess Doctor’s just have to tell you everything even if it may be a little scary to hear. I left the office feeling very nervous and called my husband and then sat in the van and cried. I was really scared to have a miscarriage. So there will be a lot of praying and waiting for our ultrasound in the new year.

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Though we don’t know what the future holds…we do know that there is a little human in there now (we pray that they are growing and developing) I still cannot believe that we are pregnant and I am going to enjoy this pregnancy and cherish this whole journey.

If you would like to see a video update of my 1 Month update go check it out here 🙂

1 Month Bump Update

xo,

-Cynthia

 

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baby #4 on the way

Well Hello world!

I’ve taken an incredibly long vacation from my blog! But I am ready to get back into the swing of things because……

We’re Pregnant!!!!!

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Baby #4 is growing in my tummy as we speak! I cannot believe this!
Jayden and I have been trying to conceive for about 5 months now, It has been a struggle for me to have waited this long. If you know us…you know that pregnancy has come so fast for us…all 3 times!
But God had other plans this time around and he planned this one so perfectly.

The past year has been incredibly hard for me, I’ve been in and out of depression and even to the point of going on medication for it! It has been a journey…a not so very fun one at times.
But while we went to England in August we thought it was time to start trying for another baby and I made the decision to come off of the medication…but I guess it took my body a couple of months to come off of the medication and for God’s timing to line everything up.

I’ve struggled tremendously with my self image these past couple of months and I recently just learned to let those thoughts about myself go. And BAM…we are pregnant!

I am so excited for this journey, I may not be 100% ok with my body and the image I have…but when I saw that tiny little second pink line on our pregnancy test all my worries and anxiety about my image have vanished! I may have hard days here and there and I know that…but guys…I get to experience growing another precious little being. I am so thankful for this, maybe it’s not the “ideal” time for me as I really, really wanted to lose more weight before this pregnancy…but that sooo doesn’t matter anymore.

So let’s back up a couple days (or in this case a couple weeks…as I won’t post this until my loved ones know our secret, which won’t be until the New Year at least)

Thursday, December 7th I was getting ready to hop in the shower and decided to just pee in a cup and dip the pregnancy strip test in there. I jumped in the shower and then about 10 minutes later Jayden came into the bathroom so I asked him to look at the strip and he said “What there’s two lines” (in a no big deal kinda way) and I opened the curtain and said “WHAT!!! No way!!!!” and he said “What? is this is a pregnancy test or an ovulation test?” (as we tried those last month)
“Oh my goodness….we’re pregnant….NO WAY HONEY…..Really????” says my excited self!
Tears started to fill my eyes….I couldn’t believe it. It felt like we were trying forever!
I called and made a Doctor’s appointment and I am booked in for December 28th (forever away from now)

December 8th- I took a digital test…

December 9th- I took another strip test!

So stay tuned for our updates during this pregnancy I don’t think I will do them weekly this time but definitely at least every couple of weeks!

I can’t believe there is a little “squish” inside of me ❤ My heart could explode!

(I wanted to add that I exported this post from my last blog site) It was written on December 9th, 2017

xo,

-Cynthia

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a fresh start

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Hello,

Cynthia here and I’ve been working towards revamping my blog! This year a goal of mine is to really get into blogging (and vlogging) I’m gonna try really hard to make a goal to do a post once a week. I need to sit down and actually plan what I want to blog about and get a little idea board going! You may know that I’ve been a blogger for years now and I actually had another layout on another site….well that is where the fresh start comes in, I decided to finally make this official and purchase my own domain…that’s right I am now thewholelifemama.blog.com and I couldn’t be more excited for this next chapter. Having a fresh start is very refreshing and very motivating!

Some regular posts you will definitely see are my pregnancy updates (which I will put out once a month) I will be 16 weeks tomorrow, so look out for my 4 month update post! You will also see just life updates of our little family, some photography, maybe some home posts (before & afters) or diy projects, I may even sneak in a recipe or two (lol), some mama posts, marriage, I love Jesus and I definitely want to do posts on my faith!

I just wanted to pop on here real quick to make my “first” post! I’m actually trying really hard to figure out how to export my posts from my old website to this one, but I’m having a tough time doing so…so I think what might happen is I’ll just really make this a fresh start but still just keep my old posts on my old website and call it a day.

If you are interested at all here is the link to my old website if you’d like to see some older posts from me. Old Site Otherwise, follow along here for some pretty awesome adventures!